You're like the tide
incessantly crashing on the shore,
in a moment of insanity.
hoping with each movement,
you're either washed up on the sand
or lulled into the depths of the ocean.
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You ask for that cold embrace like it'll return
you to the land of the living
Tide of the Mind
Depression Collection
All I feel is despair
as it turns to ash on my tongue.
Every dream, every hope
held in a noose of spider silk.
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Words get stuck in my throat
before they can manifest
their value deemed useless.
Ineffective, unnecessary, uncalled for.
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And I am nothing more than
an unsaid conversation
held together by sparkling thread.
Silk
Depression Collection
I flirt with suicide
like I haven't had a hundred lovers
Lean into its embrace to tease,
only to step away with scars on my skin
Scars on my mind
An intimate dance
An intimate quarrel
Screaming on the edge
Trying to escape the pounding my head
The thrum in my veins,
that looks for any opening
begs for me to let it see the moonlight
I shouldn't court suicide.
Worst Flirt
Depression Collection
My soul wears
a psychotic smile
so be careful when you
look into my eyes
The mercury tears
aren't to hid it
because the madness
over
f
l
o
w
s
Mercury Tears
Depression Collection
I came running to you
with ice in my veins
fire on my skin
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I forgot how to breathe
as you watched me succumb to the pain.
No Help
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The streets are flooded
with the rosé of the setting sun
And I'm drunk on thoughts
of suicide
Lost Thoughts
Depression Collection
White out room, void of the safe darkness.
Black simple dress,
comforting in its coolness.
Red vibrant string,
made from fates energy
and the blood of its owner.
She bent over a knot, tears falling, knowing she'll never find them.
Red String
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Screams fill her head
day and night
And not once did she cry out for help
Not once did she try to silence them
She just let herself drown
Anxiety
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I have such fine lines
You can cross them with your fingertips
One line a mere accident
you can hardly notice
one surgical white line
only a lovers chance to see
one hidden line
that even I won't be
Scars
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I woke with the sun,
but it was not from sleep
That I escaped.
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I woke with the summer sky,
but it was not from a broken heart
that I arose.
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I woke from a clouded mind,
As depression fell into slumber,
realization rang clear.
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I was free of the chains
from the me that surfaces when I blink
Today, I can exist happily
I Awoke
Depression Collection
If you keep giving me time
your absence will no longer
cause me sadness.
But in doing so
you'll stop bringing me joy.
Warning or Reminder
I'll be Alright
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There are blissful days in which I forget
Forget how much self hatred is contained in this heart of mine.
Days I Forget
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I have fallen into the abyss,
so deep I could no longer see.
but I always find myself
back on the edge,
facing the other way.
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I have tripped into my thoughts
so violently I come away
with scraped knees,
the flesh of my palms
broken and bleeding.
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but my blood runs black
because I stared for too long
Abyss
Depression Collection
I travers the loom of life
with an unanchored thread.
So with each decision
I watch my tapestry unravel.
Thread
Depression Collection
When I'm with you
I can't forget how he made me feel
I can't help but respond in the ways he wanted
And I know it will drive you away.
But I can't stop saying I'm sorry.
For every little thing.
When you don't speak for days
I should ask if you're ok
But I think I've done something wrong.
I feel at fault for an imagined slight.
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You could give me nothing but joy
and I would still think I did something wrong.
The Way He Made Me Feel
Depression Collection
Your pain is only for today
It will vanish before
it devours you
Though it won't seem that way.
You're a rainbow.
A burst of laughter
You're alive
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My pain is a grandfather clock
passed down for generations.
A little broken but guaranteed to chime.
Can't rid myself of an inheritance.
I'm the winter sky
The vastness of the ocean
And I'll always exist.
Comparing Pain
Depression Collection
It all begins to feel like nothing.
It's not my anger that should be feared,
as catastrophic as it can be.
It's the sadness that dwells in my soul
that should cause you to tremble.
It's the tears that will flow
until you drown in my sorrows.
The demons that escape,
that should cause hope.
But we all know wouldn't last
It was the darkness of my being
that was supposed to protect me
from the carelessness that is you
Sad Demons
Depression Collection
It was a quiet despair
as the silence took over the mind
letting it all rot
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A quiet despair
as the room emptied
leaving a heart full of loneliness
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A quiet despair
as what was left
became a void